Monthly Archives: September 2011

The Death of Still

Pete and I were having an interesting conversation in the car today (well, at least I think it was interesting); I was explaining to him why the word “still” (used as an adverb) is kind of a pet peeve for me…I want to erase the word (used adverbially) from my vocabulary.  Here’s why.  When you use the word as an adverb as in, “I still love you” it’s conveying this meaning of “Even with everything considered, I love you.”  So, even though you are affirming love for someone, you’re bringing up in that one little word “still” all the reasons why you shouldn’t have to love them.  And I wonder if that’s how we should be loving.

I mean, we all know we’re screwed up people; that without the unconditional love and forgiveness of God we would remain completely and utterly desolate, wreaking havoc and destruction wherever we go and whatever we do.  But, because of God’s beautiful plan of redemption through Jesus Christ, we are now completely and utterly redeemed.  Beauty from ashes.  And, the coolest part of our beauty is that God extends forgiveness for our screwed-up-ness.

Psalm 103: 11-12 “For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.”  1 John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”

I guess I just would hate to wake up every morning and have God say, “Emily, I still love you (I mean, even with everything considered…like how you lose patience with your kids, or how you judge other people, or that thought you had yesterday…about not trusting me…yeah, I remember all that, but don’t worry, I still love you.”

I think God says, “I love you.  Nothing you can do will make me love you more or less, because I AM love.  Love perfect. Love unconditional.  New mercies every morning.”  Great is God’s faithfulness.  Great is God’s sacrifice for us.  Because of Jesus Christ, we now have life. And as a Christian, a “little-Christ,” I am called to extend love to others.  Seventy times seven… forgiveness.  Lay down my life for my brothers and sisters love.

Hebrews 10:19-25 “And so, dear brothers and sisters, we can boldly enter heaven’s Most Holy Place because of the blood of Jesus. By his death,Jesus opened a new and life-giving way through the curtain into the Most Holy Place. And since we have a great High Priest who rules over God’s house, let us go right into the presence of God with sincere hearts fully trusting him. For our guilty consciences have been sprinkled with Christ’s blood to make us clean, and our bodies have been washed with pure water. Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise. Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.”

Who do you need to love in your life and put to death the still that gets in the way?

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So, how are you doing?

We get asked that a lot these days!  How are we doing?  Such a crazy question to answer, right?  My (Emily’s) current answer to the question would be amazingly scattered. I thought I’d give you just a few of the things that fly through my mind when someone asks me this…

1. I’m doing AWESOME…God has never before put a task before me that is so obviously HIS CALLING for me, for us.  I’ve always believed that God leads, but I’ve seriously never felt such a strong presence and strong calling before in my life.  The path God took to lead us into missions confirmed for me that it is all God’s doing, not mine.  I’m simply walking in obedience to Him.  This is such a comfort to me in the hard moments!!

2. Ummm…to be fair and honest, I also have moments when I strongly dislike aspects of this journey.  I cried selling our stuff (like, seriously, we sold all our stuff).  Honestly, I’m somewhat disappointed we didn’t sell our house and instead are renting it.  I get nervous every.single.time I make a phone call to set up an appointment with someone.  I get this feeling like I don’t want to trust God or His people for support.  I’d rather have a job w/ a regular paycheck.  Ok…now laugh with me.  Those things fly through my head a lot.  But right behind them God reminds me that all things come from Him.  We are all dependent on Him to supply all our needs.  None of us can rely on our stuff, our paychecks, our plans, our dreams…the only strong rock is God our King.  The only security is in Him.  So, I pray just as quickly as I lose faith and God is faithful to remind me of His provision, who He is, how He loves me and all His people.  God is keeping me on my knees before Him.  I can’t do this on my own at all!  I can only stand and proclaim the goodness of my Lord.

Remember the band Caedmon’s Call?  I love their honesty in their lyrics.  They are writing the soundtrack for my life at the moment.  This song in particular is an encouragement to me.

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